Have you ever wanted to walk away from everything you have ever known and close the door?
Like truly walk out with nothing but the clothes on your back and just start afresh and claim your new life???
I did exactly just that almost 20 years ago. I was in a relationship and I will never talk ill about him, but we just grew apart. I think that is fair to say. In the end, I told him it was over after many empty threats of leaving and one day, I had enough. I had always believed that I was destined for more. I just didn’t know what exactly back then what it was I was called to do.
I was a very different – selfish person in my 20’s. I was ego-driven and really unhappy because I felt constrained.
I played it very safe.
In my 30’s i made a tonne of mistakes. Fell in love with the wrong man. That relationship taught me so much about what i DIDN’T want and I was hurt very deeply. I trusted and lost. I lost everything including all of my money. I never knew it back then, but all of the hurt and pains, AND the lessons were setting me up for a massive comeback in life.
Late in my thirties, I met Olaf. He was and still is everything that I had wanted in someone. I won’t lie. It HAS not been smooth sailing. We have moments that have been rocky and challenging. But we always work them out and commit to being better versions of ourselves going forward.
I am not perfect. Far from it. I have moments where I just want to scream all day especially if the kids are very hyper, but those days are very few in between. I take them as “one of those days”.
In the coming days… we are revealing our next move after a very challenging 6 months… I both excited and sad at the same time as we close another chapter. But it’s one that we need. I need it too.
Life has been good to me. I have had my fair share of pain, but I am grateful for all of it. I know I can sleep at night as I don’t intentionally go out to hurt people. I am just honest.
Here’s to a week of surprises, good news and happiness.